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  Toronto Collection, Volume One

  Heather Wardell

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  Table of Contents

  Author's Note

  Life, Love, and a Polar Bear Tattoo

  Go Small or Go Home

  Planning to Live

  Stir Until Thoroughly Confused

  A Life That Fits

  Acknowledgements

  Thank you for reading

  Also By Heather Wardell

  An excerpt of "Live Out Loud", the next book in the "Toronto Collection"

  AUTHOR'S NOTE

  Thank you for picking up "Toronto Collection Volume One"! This is five books in one - the first five novels of my "Toronto Collection" of loosely connected books are all right here for you.

  Candice of "Life, Love, and a Polar Bear Tattoo" plans to spend her husband's month-long trip overseas deciding if her marriage can be saved, but when the first man she ever loved is the new client at work, she wonders what she truly wants from life and love.

  In "Go Small or Go Home", massage therapist Tess begins working with injured hockey star Forrest and as a result the art career of her dreams drops into her lap... but will that career ruin the hobby she adores?

  "Planning to Live" is the story of planning- and weight-obsessed Rhiannon who finds herself trapped in her car on Christmas Day after fleeing her parents' house in a blizzard to avoid over-eating.

  Mary in "Stir Until Thoroughly Confused" has finally found her dream chef career. And her perfect man, her boss Kegan. But she can't have both and she must decide which matters more.

  Twenty-eight-year-old Andrea has just learned her boyfriend of fourteen years has found someone else. She needs to find out who she is so she can build herself "A Life That Fits".

  I'd love to hear what you think of these books, so please feel free to visit me at http://www.heatherwardell.com and let me know! You can also find me at http://www.facebook.com/heather.wardell.author or http://www.twitter.com/heatherwardell.

  Happy reading!

  Heather

  LIFE, LOVE, AND A POLAR BEAR TATTOO

  Monday, August 1st

  I studied Ian, the husband I'd vowed to love, the man I could barely talk to any more. He held my gaze, his jaw set and his eyes distant as if he'd retreated somewhere inside, somewhere I couldn't follow, somewhere safe from me. The urge to knock his luggage aside and throw myself into his arms flooded me, but I resisted. We weren't like that any more.

  "Well, I should get in there," he said. "The security check will take ages."

  I nodded. "You're sure you have everything?"

  "I hope so." He paused as if considering what he had to bring, then said, "I'll miss you, Candice."

  "I... I'll miss you too," I said, tears rising at the realization that we were both embarrassed to admit to even this much emotion. How had we lost each other so completely?

  "Enjoy having time to yourself."

  As I intended to use at least part of Ian's four-week absence to decide whether our marriage was salvageable, I didn't expect much enjoyment. "I'll try," I said, then added, to lighten the mood, "but Ninja probably won't let me."

  "You tell him who's boss," he said, giving me a wry smile.

  "He already knows he is," I said, attempting to return his smile. And failing. "Ian..." I stared at him, unable to find the words to say how sorry I was for how wrong our lives together had become, for the gap between us that I couldn't see how to bridge.

  He pulled me as close as he could over the suitcases, his hand smoothing over the back of my head and down the length of my hair. Ignoring the people bustling around us, knowing his luggage wouldn't be stolen from between us, I closed my eyes and breathed in Ian's scent of fabric softener and lumber. Only the wife of a carpenter would find the smell of wood sexy. Ian's arms around me had always been safety, security, but since the car accident there'd been no safety to be found.

  Ian gave me one last squeeze, then pulled back to look into my eyes. "I love you, you know."

  We hadn't said that for a while. "I love you too." And I did. I knew I did. I just didn't feel it any more.

  He dropped his head and said, without looking at me, "I wish..." then shrugged.

  He could have been wishing for anything, but I knew what he meant. I'd been thinking about it all morning, and apparently he had as well. "Me too," I said, forcing the words out past the sudden lump in my throat. He hadn't mentioned his parents for months. "But they were thrilled you took on the project and they'd be so happy for you today. You're doing a great thing."

  He stood still for a moment then bent and gathered the pull straps of his suitcases into one hand. "Email me tonight and I'll write back as soon as I get settled. Drive carefully, okay?"

  Before Christmas Eve, that had been just a casual comment, a throw-away. After his parents' deaths, it meant a lot more. "I will. I promise."

  He put his hand on my cheek and leaned in to kiss me. His mouth on mine was as warm and sweet as ever, but the sense that he was only kissing me because he knew he should made me uncomfortably relieved when he pulled away.

  After a few steps toward the airport entrance he turned back and said, "Check the glove box."

  "Why?"

  "Sometimes things crawl in there and hide."

  I blinked, confused. "In the car?"

  "Might want to be where it's air conditioned," he said. "To avoid the heat. Some things don't like the heat."

  "Ah," I said, and we smiled at each other, almost shyly, then he dragged his suitcases behind him into the airport. He didn't look back.

  *****

  Once he was out of sight, I popped open the car's glove box, picked up the plastic bag that tumbled out, and peered inside to see a small white face peering back at me.

  I blinked back tears as I pulled the bear from the bag. Ian liked to tease me about my polar bear obsession, but he knew how attached I was to them. This one was adorable, soft and plushy with its arms open as if waiting for a hug. I couldn't quite bring myself to hug it in public, but I settled it into the passenger seat, fastening its seatbelt tightly, to keep me company as I drove to work.

  I did up my own seatbelt as well, making sure it didn't catch on my lacy cardigan, the first thing I'd ever crocheted. Ian had been so impressed I'd been able to handle the intricate stitches and he liked me in blue, so I'd worn it today to say goodbye. Maybe I'd wear it again on his return.

  Before I joined the steady flow of Toronto airport traffic, I shot a quick look in the opposite direction as well, making sure none of the other drivers were doing something unexpected. Ian always did this extra little check while driving, and it had become a habit for me too, ingrained by his constant reminders.

  My cell phone rang after I'd been on the move a minute or two, and I scrambled to find it in my purse while still keeping my eyes on the road. Could something have happened to Ian? He'd verified at least ten times that he had all the documentation he needed, but--

  I glanced at the phone's screen and relief swept me. "Hi, Lou."

  "If Ian's not gone yet, I can call back."

  "No, I'm just leaving the airport."

  "Okay.
We have a new client you need to meet."

  "I met him on Friday," I said, surprised Lou didn't remember.

  "Not that one. The new new client."

  "Another one? I thought we were booked solid."

  "I know we are, you know we are, but Richard doesn't seem to be able to remember."

  "Ah." There was nothing more to be said. Richard owned Sapphire Interior Design and was constantly on the hunt for new clients. He worked only for the most affluent and influential clients, Lou took care of the firm's restaurant design work, and I handled whatever Lou assigned to me.

  "Exactly. He'll be here at eleven, so if you can make it back by then it'd be great."

  I glanced at the car’s clock. Almost ten. "Should be fine. Close to it, anyhow."

  "Come right to my office when you get here, okay?"

  "Will do." I hung up, and gave such a huge sigh that I made myself a little light-headed. I'd been hoping for a quiet day with no surprises, a day where I could sit at my desk and do easy tasks and not have to be cheerful and enthusiastic for some new client.

  The drive to the office, unfortunately, bore no surprises: no matter what time I took the highway it was always insanely busy and today was no exception. My shoulders grew tight and painful as I drove, and by the time I reached the office's parking lot I'd developed a headache. A perfect addition to the day.

  When I pushed through the heavy mahogany double doors, the office was empty. Coffee break time. I walked past the assistant designers’ desks, my steps echoing on the polished white marble, then caught a glimpse of myself in the mirrored wall surrounding Richard's office.

  I'd left my hair down because Ian liked it loose, it was far too out of control for work. Or for any time, really. Its weight pulled it straight to just past my chin, where it exploded into waves that reached the middle of my back. Despite its lack of cooperation, I'd always thought long hair was prettier than short, so I kept it in all its uneven dull brown 'glory'.

  My mascara was still in place, but then I hadn't cried when Ian left. I would have, a year ago. I hadn't let myself cry for a long time, too afraid I might not be able to stop. The lip gloss I'd put on in the morning was gone, though, so I gave myself another quick slick, grabbing a painkiller from my purse at the same time. I took the pill dry, pulled a big gold-colored clip from my desk drawer and twisted my hair up, then tucked my purse under my desk and knocked on Lou's door.

  "Come in."

  I did, and stopped in the doorway like I'd run into a glass wall. I felt as stunned as if I had. It couldn't be. It couldn't be him.

  But it was.

  Lou waved me to the other visitor chair and I sat down, struggling to keep my face calm. Taking his own seat behind his mahogany desk, Lou said, "Kegan, this is my assistant Candice Warburton. Candice, this is Kegan Underwood, our newest client."

  Kegan turned sharply toward me when Lou said 'Warburton', but he just smiled and said, "Nice to see you again," holding his hand out to me. Our eyes met as we shook hands, and a sparkly shock rippled through me. I took back my hand as quickly as I could.

  Lou's eyes flicked from Kegan to me and back again. "You know each other, I take it?"

  I swallowed hard. "It's been a few years, but yes."

  Ten, to be exact. Ten years since he'd ripped my heart out and left me in pieces. And, damn, those years had been good to him. He looked older, of course, but it suited him. His face, stronger and more mature than I remembered, was the face of a man now, and that suited him. His dark hair, in a sleek business-like cut instead of the tousled style he'd worn in university, had just a touch of silver at the temples, and the hint of maturity and strength suited him. His eyes, though, those glorious blue eyes were the same. They'd always suited him.

  My hair was a lot longer, and I'd put on a few pounds since I'd seen him last. I hadn't worn makeup at all back then. Did he think I looked good? I forced the thought out of my mind. His opinion meant nothing to me.

  Kegan smiled. "Small world, isn't it?" Those blue eyes, just as magnetic as I remembered, seemed to be searching my soul. Kegan. Here. At the worst possible time. I said nothing, turning away from him.

  Lou, rifling through a folder stuffed with papers, said, "Yup. Small. Look, with your deadline, we need to get a lot done today. You can stay for a while, Kegan?"

  He nodded, and I said, "What is the deadline?"

  My voice sounded strange and tight, even to myself, and Lou looked at me. "Are you okay, Candice?"

  "I'm fine," I said, dragging myself together. If Kegan realized how he was affecting me, he'd gain a victory I didn't want him to have. "It's just been a rough weekend." I could have strangled myself.

  Lou smiled at me. "I'm sure it has." Turning to Kegan, he said, despite my begging him mentally not to, "Candice's husband has just left for a one-month stay in Bangladesh, volunteering with a charity. They'll be building at least one house and a one-room school, right, Candice?"

  I fixed my eyes on Lou's face so I wouldn't have to see Kegan's. "Yes. That's the plan, anyhow."

  "That's wonderful," Kegan said. "Very noble."

  He sounded sincere, but I still wouldn't be discussing Ian with Kegan. "Yes, I'm very proud of him. Back to work, though. The deadline?"

  "September fifteenth," Kegan said.

  Shocked, I turned to him without meaning to. "Six weeks?" Lou and I usually spent at least four months getting a new restaurant planned and ready to open. I worked with the clients at the beginning to help them define their vision, and Lou created the designs to make it happen.

  "That's right," Lou said, throwing a 'no scaring the client' look in my direction. "Kegan knows it's a rush job, but I've assured him we can handle it." He turned his attention back to his papers, and I forced myself to look at Kegan. If I was going to make it through this, I had to get used to the sight of him.

  Our eyes met, and I was twenty-one again, head over heels in love for the first time, hearing him tell me why I wasn't good enough for him, then somehow gathering the strength to walk away and leave him. Was he thinking the same thing? Probably not.

  Kegan shot me a wink, the same sexy little wink that had always made me blush and giggle. My cheeks burned once again, but this time it was from a sudden fury. Nice try, but it's not going to work. I was not going to be won over.

  Lou looked up and began speaking about the schedule, and I focused on him like a starving woman on a nice juicy steak. "Candice, I've already told Kegan I won't be fully available this week. You're his contact until at least Thursday. Anything he wants, you'll make sure he gets."

  Anything?

  *****

  "I knew you shouldn't have taken that job," Larissa said.

  I stared at her. "Then why didn't you say something at the time?"

  "I did! I said if Kegan ever got off his ass and started his restaurant, you might have to work with him."

  "But we never thought it would happen. And Ian's boss was nice enough to talk to Lou about me. I'd have offended him if I hadn't taken the job."

  Larissa toyed with the stem of her martini glass. "But once Ian wasn't working for him any more, why didn't you..."

  My rum and coke went down the wrong way and I started coughing, trying to do it as quietly as I could to not annoy the other diners. When I was able to speak again, I said, "Ian only left that job a few months ago. I should have quit working for Lou, after nearly three years, because Kegan might show up one day?"

  Before she could answer, I jumped in again. "And I can't do anything now anyhow. Kegan would know it was because of him. Why didn't you say something when Ian quit his job?"

  "I don't tell you everything I think, you know," Larissa said with a hint of the eight-year-old girl she'd been when we'd met and become instant best friends. I responded in kind.

  "You don't? But you never stop talking. When do you have time to think anything else?"

  Larissa dropped her hands to the side of her chair and leaned forward as if about to get up. "Don't make me
come over there."

  "Don't make me laugh." I balled my hands into fists and shook them at her.

  Our pretend fight was derailed by the arrival of the waitress with our food. She was new, and having a lot of trouble. She gave my plate to Larissa, knocking over a drink in the process, and had to go back three times to get the salad dressing and butter.

  "Who only brings one pat of butter to two people?" Larissa said after the waitress was finally done.

  "Beats me. Kegan won't stand for it."

  Larissa closed her eyes as though I'd physically hurt her. "Please please don't let him get to you."

  "Just because he talked about how he expects his staff to behave doesn't mean--"

  "Candice. Shut up. You know what he's like. You have to be careful."

  Yes, I did. On both counts. I sighed. "If I could get out of it, I would. But Lou didn't give me much choice."

  "If you stay professional, and don't let him try anything, it should be okay." She didn't sound convinced.

  "He's not going to try anything. Please. If he wanted me, he could have kept me. No, I don't think that's in the cards." I emphasized the last word, and focused my eyes on her purse on the extra chair between us.

  Her face lit up. "Of course, why didn't I think of that?" After a few seconds of rummaging, she pulled out a tiny cardboard box.

  She'd been skeptical about tarot cards when her older sister first showed her how to read them. Rachel had told Larissa she would meet a beautiful blond man and fall in love, but it wouldn't last forever. Three weeks later, Larissa fell hard for a stunning Nordic boy in town for a week on business. They'd spent nearly the entire time in the bedroom, and then Hans or Karl or whatever-his-name-was returned to Norway (Denmark? Sweden?) never to be heard from again.

  Since that day, Larissa had been the queen of the tarot cards. She'd also predicted that I would find true love. Beaten down by Kegan and a few too many dead-end relationships after him, I'd actually laughed in her face. She'd been right, though: a month later I'd met Ian. She read the cards so often for me now that she kept a set at my house, and she always had the travel pack I'd given her in her purse.